The original title for this love letter to my sweetheart was "Sorry". Early on in our relationship my sweetheart became a little overwhelmed. When she signed up with eHarmony, she really wasn't looking to get into a serious relationship. In my own little way, I was what she was looking for. I just arrived earlier and with more intensity than she was ready for. The morning after a very nice phone call, I received an e-mail saying that she needed to take some time for herself. She called me a few days later. I was trying to understand what was troubling her, when she said she had to go (sounding like she was on the verge of tears). Over the next couple of days, I sent her a few upbeat e-mails, but never received any response. I was concerned that I might never hear back from her. Since I had some extra time on my hands, I decided to write a goodbye letter. I thought of it as writing my own Dear John letter. I wrote the letter and saved it. I decided that if I hadn't heard from her by Friday, I probably would never hear back from her. So I was going to send my I Am Sorry letter on Friday. She called back on Thursday. I have read I Am Sorry to her (quite a few times, actually), but I never sent it.

Can a goodbye letter be a love letter? Read it. I think it is very tender, sweet... and yes, loving. I think I Am Sorry is a love letter. You can decide for yourself.

For tips on writing a goodbye letter, please read How To Write A Goodbye Letter.

Dear Tammy,

Since you haven't responded to my e-mails and I haven't heard from you since Monday evening, I assume you are pretty upset with me. I am sorry about that. I was trying very hard to understand you, where you were at and how I could best fit into your life. I am sorry if that made you frustrated or unhappy with me. I guess I have moved from the "Friend Zone" to "The Dead Zone" (or "The End Zone"). The saddest thing for me is that I never got to meet you. I never got to look into your eyes and see your smile. I never got to give you and receive a BIG, HUGE hug. I missed out on ALL those big hugs you promised me!! (smile)

If I ever made you smile, if I ever made you laugh, if I ever brought any joy into your life, I hope you would consider doing me two favors. First, I would really appreciate it if you could send me a nice picture of yourself. I would like to finally see the person that so intrigued me, whose inner beauty I so admired. And please don't make me beg. Please, please, please... (smile) Second, if sometime in the future you find yourself in a better place and the memories of a man with a good heart that could touch your heart outweigh the memories of his shortcomings, I hope you will give me a call. I really would like that.

With that said, I wish you well and I will miss you.

Thinking of you fondly,